I’m Jennifer, but most call me Jenn. I’m the mom who doesn’t have time to cook the best meal and takes advantage of a delivery pizza more than I feel comfortable admitting. I’m the mom who wants her house full of all things organic and nothing else will do. I’m the mom who struggles to find a balance between work, passion, and family. And lastly I’m the mom who is working on taking better care of myself, because let’s be real… I’m not in my early 20’s anymore.
When I turned 30 I started noticing changes in myself. My skin wasn’t glowing like it did 10 years before. There were signs of fine lines forming. And crow’s feet – oh the crow’s feet… evidence that I love a good laugh. I felt like I was losing myself. I had been working as a wedding and family photographer AND keeping a full time job. I struggled with the feeling of failure because I couldn’t focus on my passion at full speed since I also worked a full-time 40+ hour a week completely noncreative job. I took all of these feelings out on my family (especially my husband) and you know what? I did fail. I failed at seeing what it was that God wanted for my life. I failed at seeing that maybe I needed to shut some doors and keep walking through the ones that were being opened for me and instead I let the poison of self doubt and fear run my thoughts and actions.
Two years later in 2014 I started a journey with Young Living, and while I didn’t continue walking through that door that other’s were helping to open for me, it opened my eyes to how life should really be- friendships, being intentional with what you feed your mind and your body, and helping others do the same. It has taken a few years to fully grasp what was being handed to me and I’ve missed the mark where I could have grown even more had I just focused, but I 100% believe that was my learning curve. Babies don’t always walk the first time. Why should we think that other milestones are any different?
Something else I kept noticing in my social media feeds, is that I wasn’t alone. There are so many moms out there just like me trying to be the “perfect” mom when there simply is no such thing. You can see their tired eyes and weary smiles in their photos. I wish I could reach out and hug every single one of them and tell them that they are wonderful moms. My hope is that this little adventure is like doing just that. This is my encouragement for you to keep going. Keep trying. Pick your battles. Win your life back.
So stick around, say hello, get encouraged, and live your life!
Photo Credit :: Casey + Kristin